a purpose-driven woman... 'went rock climbing today with my SFC sisters (yey!). painful but perfect. we were 16 determined ladies scaling walls we never imagined we would attempt to climb. but we did! i stepped further, and further up... fell a whole lot of times but what da heck?! an analogy of life facing me squarely saying "take me on!"... definitely, taking this plunge just means more surprises, and more promises. way to go gals! let's do it again soon!

--written Tuesday, March 23, 2004
a purpose-driven life... 'been reading this book with a friend of mine, and i think i'm understanding much more about why i am here... last night i spent time with a few good women, and we had a few good hours to encourage one another, and to swap stories/lessons that shed light on our past idealisms and present worries... and thank God! the future looks great... my purpose-driven life?... i think it's really, simply, purposely to love, to take the risk, to plunge into the deep... i can't think of any other reason for my existence... can you?

p.s. i love you my SFC sisters!

good news room... while i was recuperating after surgery, my ward was blessed with wonderful women, because they were bearers of good news. they were good Christian ladies, always smiling, simple in speech, truthful in conversation... then there was Gabrielle. she was our little Beth. full of talent, young & real, she even gave me a book to remember her by... mere gestures, small acts of kindness kept us together in our pain & in our healing... thank God for the female persuasion!

--written Thursday, December 11, 2003
the advantage of hearing good news is that you are glad to spread it... juicy tidbits of grandeous works of God inflame the very soul of man, still caught up in temporal matters, sucking up every ounce of happiness just to survive the next day of battle... inflamed as in amazed, overwhelmed, disturbed, awakened, driven... and such works of God will illuminate the hearts of men indeed... such Good News is a welcome surprise to this mortality we like to call humanity...

better is one day... and this day God gives me.

--written Friday, October 31, 2003
i left this comment on my friend & sister in Christ, april07's xanga site:

"i remember what you said in the van... what God told you anyways... (paraphrased) 'what's one day of doing earthly things compared to one day of serving My needs?...'"

"yes, i often ask that question myself... can God add to my limitations? can he further this cause with a single breath? will He remove this holy burden from my frail shell of a human being? or do i want this so bad, it's worth more than anything else?..."

"God knows our hearts, and He will stay there... He will remove ALL the obstacles in our way... when we wish it hard enough... and THEN our lives will be transformed..."

i realize the immensity of the dream when i am awake, and in my waking moments my mind reels thinking about God's crazy dream...

"Humble me Lord so you can use me..."