better is one day... and this day God gives me.

--written Friday, October 31, 2003
i left this comment on my friend & sister in Christ, april07's xanga site:

"i remember what you said in the van... what God told you anyways... (paraphrased) 'what's one day of doing earthly things compared to one day of serving My needs?...'"

"yes, i often ask that question myself... can God add to my limitations? can he further this cause with a single breath? will He remove this holy burden from my frail shell of a human being? or do i want this so bad, it's worth more than anything else?..."

"God knows our hearts, and He will stay there... He will remove ALL the obstacles in our way... when we wish it hard enough... and THEN our lives will be transformed..."

i realize the immensity of the dream when i am awake, and in my waking moments my mind reels thinking about God's crazy dream...

"Humble me Lord so you can use me..."