better is one day... and this day God gives me.

--written Friday, October 31, 2003
i left this comment on my friend & sister in Christ, april07's xanga site:

"i remember what you said in the van... what God told you anyways... (paraphrased) 'what's one day of doing earthly things compared to one day of serving My needs?...'"

"yes, i often ask that question myself... can God add to my limitations? can he further this cause with a single breath? will He remove this holy burden from my frail shell of a human being? or do i want this so bad, it's worth more than anything else?..."

"God knows our hearts, and He will stay there... He will remove ALL the obstacles in our way... when we wish it hard enough... and THEN our lives will be transformed..."

i realize the immensity of the dream when i am awake, and in my waking moments my mind reels thinking about God's crazy dream...

"Humble me Lord so you can use me..."

fools rush in... actually, distance HAS made my heart grow fonder... if i can love, i can determine worth; and my significant other is worth a lot... whoever HE is...

--written Friday, October 01, 2004
i label myself a hopeless romantic, sentimental, a fool for love... and yet i am sceptical about the possibilities (or purposefulness) of certain relationships: the non-conformist long-distance relationship, the controversial "age-doesn't-matter" love affair, the timeless hunt for Mr. or Ms. Right, and the list lengthens... how do i really determine the worth of a love which i've never had?... yes, lately i've been spouting 'love' lingo but in all seriousness once the moment of truth hits me hard, my (final) decision will either scar or redeem me... and so i will give other hearts a chance to map out their destiny, whether it is with me... or not...

the year of the tiger... it's been a year & 3 months for me working as a missionary. and i still want to keep doing it. for thos who prayed for me then, i need your prayers even more now. 'nuff said!... see you next year!

--written Monday, February 23, 2004
ok... so... i am now working fulltime as a missionary for my community, Couples for Christ, in our singles ministry, SFC... effective this year... *scream* thank you for all those who prayed with me on this... your prayers are incense to God because your hearts are pure and all for Him... this is all about You...